A Passage from my book, and a Message from the Soulful Starlights (My two daughters in the Afterlife).
“As your emotions live on the surface and tears come easily, let them come. Let yourself cry. Let the tears stream down your face. Let your emotions out, the ones that bubble to the surface, let them out. As the tears stop and the intense emotion you are feeling is released, allow a calmness to come over you, leaving you feeling lighter in sadness.“
This passage was important for me to re-read again especially after an emotional incident that occurred yesterday while I was grocery shopping for a small dinner party at our home last night. It was one of those experiences that caught me off guard and totally blindsided me with overwhelming emotion to the point of hyperventilating.
The experience had me talking to myself and trembling as I barely made it out of the store to my waiting husband in the car before I completely melted down, sobbing in sorrow. I cried all the way home and into the house where he comforted me with a compassionate hug.
Grief is like that, it doesn’t matter how long it’s been since a wave of emotion hit so strong or how long it’s been since your loss of a loved one … it always catches you off-guard and it hurts intensely.
My daughter Crystal left this world nearly a decade ago, although it feels much shorter than that because I feel her presence with me often in signs, messages and in our Soulful Starlight (Mediumship) Sessions.
I can hear her in my dreams and in my daily activities and intuitive work but it has sadly been a long time since I heard her voice out loud. Her expressions were always vibrant as she had a larger than life exuberant personality that left my life painfully quiet in her absence.
As I glided my cart past the bakery section in our neighborhood store I observed a pretty woman with two young adult girls with her. Just as I passed by one of the girls started enthusiastically saying, “Mom, Mom, Mom” in just a way that it sounded like my daughter, Crystal all those years ago.
It’s been ten years since I heard her voice and it took me right back to grocery shopping with her at our neighborhood store in the Florida Keys years ago when she was smiling, playful and excited to be there.
Hearing those words with the emotion of a daughter to her Mom, broke my heart and yet it felt like Crystal was talking to me. I didn’t look back because it took all I had to keep from breaking down in that exact moment.
As strikingly painful as it was to have that experience, I’m grateful for the opportunity to relive a treasured memory with my loving daughter, Crystal and to remember she is always trying to get my attention with love, and mystical, magical and mindful moments.
Love always, Nancy Yuskaitis
